Thus, I now feign maturity and make the choice I should have made days before. A part of me wishes that I have let go and a part of me dreads the day when I will. But in general, it doesn't matter so much to me because calling her(with a little token of our friendship) was closure enough for me. It's crazy because I woke her up in the middle of the night just to answer my call. And even though I fell  in love with her all over again when I heard her voice, I knew that I was free from the chains that bound me to her or from the love that I felt for her. I'm telling you, I slept a whole lot better that night.

Its been quite a long time. I really can't write anything about my situation right now so I just decided to pin down a great article.

Love is the sweetest thing, I know. It's the greatest feeling. That is, if the one you love loves you back. There can't be anything better than that. But if the situation is wherein you're falling for someone who just considers you as i dont know, that's a different story. As much as possible, evade from those heart-wrenching situations. Love is hard to control, but try anyway. Give your best shot at falling out of love. You're lucky if you detect the absurdity and the pain of unrequited love right away, because it spares you from going through a lot of hell. All you have to do is simply occupy yourself with other things. Have fun with your life. You will fall soon, and this time you will not get hurt, because she will reciprocate the same feeling. It will not be now, but it will come in due time.

Love is all about sacrificing, giving oneself freely with no strings attached, you say. Hell, I know that. I know love is supposed to work that way. Love is really supposed to hurt, but that what makes love love. But this is my stand. And I know you respect that.

Love has pained me too much to actually believe that it is better to have not loved at all.
   
"It's hard to hold on to something that you know would never be yours in any way you think of. You just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while some good things never last, some don't even start."